Its tough to admit to myself...

that something's gotta give. I had some high hopes for this school year, but I am struggling more than I ever did last year. Well, not really, just struggling in different ways. Things at the school are not going very well - at an administrative level - and it has affected us all. I have been ill this year more than I ever have before and I am stuck in this terrible cycle - the stress making me sick and then being sick making me stressed. I am having a very difficult time with the four high school level classes that I am teaching, and things are inevitably going to get worse after half term when I have to teach them chemistry and physics (Unfortunately, it's four different topics I have to freakin' teach myself before I can teach the kids).

So, I have decided to cancel my trip to France next week. It sucks, but if I can spend my holiday preparing for next term, then maybe I can keep my head above water. I'll have some time in June and July to travel, so all is not lost...

Its the sensible thing to do.

Damn I hate being sensible...